RedAsh's Blog

This is a good time to let others know about your best qualities. Tasteful self-promotion is in order here. Communications of all kinds are punctuated, including those which educate yourself or others. Career or work activity is unusually busy and requires you be at your best.

This week lucky numbers are:
12, 16, 34, 36, 42,

September 16, 2009
You have been suffering silently for a long time. It has affected you physically and emotionally. It is now time to take a decision, be assertive and be prepared for a confrontation. Speak out what you feel and the issues will be resolved. At an outing this evening try to relax and enjoy the company of those who care for you.

~ He who sows thistles reaps thorns.

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I had the greatest breakthrough in the view of life with a few short days with Sean Koh. I can see why he manage to climb his way to the very top. He is VERY street smart.

He taught me alot in the way of survival. In the way of progress and in the way of living a life with precise moment. He told me I am too simple minded and too quick to trust. And I am also too blunt and tactless to the point of "honest to a fault"...
I mean WOW, in mere few interations, he already see through me...

Here is some of the few enlightenment he had given me...

1> When one gain favour, another lose favour.

2> Focus on the head of the pack, or potential head of the pack. One with powerful saying power. Alfiz, Sirhan, Vierra, Tan, Chow, Hisham, Hamza

3> Dont focus too much on IQ, but more on EQ. The reaction to people will change with time. It is better to gather forces greater than you, better than to let the force oppose you.

4> You cant please everyone but you can let everyone not hate you. Make everyone willing to share info with you.

5> Its inevitable that everyone backstabs and you dont even know who. They can be decent towards you at front but throw darts behind your back. But what matters is that everyone are willing to share info with you.

6> Perfect the art of Blur, do not sell your intelligence. It will become cheap and people will become irritated. Know the EQ not IQ!

I felt that the IRC are very friendly and nice persons. They allow me to rest freely and I feel like a family with them - back when I was in my NS life in Pasir Lebar Camp =D. Somehow I am thirsty, maybe too thirsty, after so much seeking for the cohort that mirrors my NS life. Somehow I manage to quench some of this thirst with this IRC group and I am glad. This is one of the few moments in my life that I will have a lasting memory...

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September 17, 2009
While you will put in enough efforts, the task undertaken is not likely to be completed. You may have to wait a little longer for its satisfactory completion. Any move involving estate or legal matters should be undertaken with all care and caution. New decisions can wait until you are more confident of yourself.

September 18, 2009 (Friday)
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Mum, I went out with my new found friends to the Golden Castle. This is the first time I felt so pleasant to go out with people. Somehow I manage to link up my frequency with theirs; I am also more observant and more discreet now with my ABC (Attitude, Behaviour and Conduct). They (Law, Poh, Tey aka Lee and Aaron) called the girls while Addullah and me are singles (I still wanna keep my Virginity and First Kiss for my wedding day =D). I had coke. The night went on pretty much normally without much sexuality going on. It was more of a pure Karaoke session. The total bill was around 240 SGD and I spent around 50 SGD that night. Btw, I slept at around 2am...

September 19, 2009 (Saturday)
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I woke at 5am, and sleep with the Reservist dudes till 11am. Then I accompany them to IPPT. It was all peace... but it is all the calm before the storm... tonight is the end of the Fasting Month, and their "Boss" allow almost half the strength of the whole crew to BOOK OUT... HOWEVER, this was done because Sean and the "Management" are "buddies". Yet, Sean's network was somehow broken when the DO turn out to be someone else (there was a change of hand with no notice made to Sean), and she(DO) reported it to the higher management. The party was cancelled @ 12am, as all the top management are coming down, and Zohree is obviously pissed as he told me to "FO".

I can understand his anger as he is now on the chopping board... at the same time, I also realised that trust is non-existant between us. Although I had no intention of backstabbing them, they are still defensive against me due to me being a regular...

I suddenly realized that they are witnesses and/or victims of this "DOG eat DOG" world... they are veterans in social network... while I am total newb.

Anyway, I added a bartender and a lawyer to my network, and learn something about wine and dining - you want to know about what you eat and drink...

Anyway, this one week had somehow made me more composed as I am now more encustomed with human interactions... a fine thread of surface-trendy relationship with spilt second betrayal... it is all due to conflict of interests aka commonly known as "guarding own arses".

Thank you mum for these valuable experiences as I realised that being good is not enough, being smart is not enough and being wise is also not enough, but being tactful and able to camouflage real intention is the cheese of the way of life...

20th September 2009, Sunday
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WOW Mum, today is an unbelievable day, I learnt a TON lot today... and the whole day stretch as if it was a recap of what I was taught for the past 1 week...

Here I go mum,

I went there earlier and bingo, the lady madam wants a physical rollcall. And there are some hoo-ha; rude remarks and some heated conversion.

Funny, it ended with the madam saying "Selamat Hari Raya".

I stayed with the IRC for the whole day. Once again I was reminded how important it is to be aware of ABC. Because I was somehow betrayed by the same IRC whom I trust too quickly; despite what they had told me that it is ok to do "illegal" stuff when not in uniform, and its already after OH and whatnot... I am skeptical but still give in so I can be part of them... And JACKPOT, I saw Dean holding his handphone aiming at me after Sean give me free "credits" to play with them.

I had to admit that I had let my guard down, and given them a chance for entry to catch my mistakes. Once again, what Sean had said suddenly echoed in my head, I am too trusting. Too foolish to think that I am actually one of them...

It was reveal by one good man that the IRC had taken pics of me when they asked me to rest, and invited me to play with them. I suddenly feel betrayed...

I realised that they do not trust me fully. And what Sean had adviced came true so fast. Another event: The madam blow up alot of matters, involving even my "boss". Friendly in front but backstabs when back turned... how true and how frightening fast... Sean is a true veteran in this kind of "game"...

While I am still figuring why people had to be cruel to each other, which is a quest out of my confort zone, I somehow realised that most people do not trust each other even when they called each other "Brother"... now I suddenly feel that this word is more of a trick than coming from the heart... it is what Sean said, "street survival tricks"

Had a good chat with my "Boss" to understand his directions and his vision of his management style. I had received a lot of insight of the things to be done and the things to be worked out.

1> The style of my management of my fireman, we are not to cover up or save their arses but to make sure they are controlled so that ALL are covered.

2> More discipline in terms of what HAS to be done. For ill-discipline breeds foul system.

3> To develop a learning organisation

4> More interactions with other rota, not just work but outside work stuff. Then refocus on work...

5> To develop a more efficient checking system. If one is too slow, others can use speed to overwhelm you with areas you not yet checked. And to do that, first thing is to know all the items.

6> Be open to opportunities. And be quick to grab it. Its the exposure and experience that you gained that counts.

7> Before faulting others, put the fault on self first. In order to gain the fastest learning rate.

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Mum,

This is one of the richest week I ever had. But it is also the saddest week for I made new friends and face betrayal of my trust I place in them; when they invited me to do "inappropriate" stuff I should have rejected - all these does not let me become more street-wise as what they claimed and it is more of a degrading to myself. But as what my "Boss" had adviced me... I should put the fault on myself, for letting my guard down. I should have taken a stronger stand and be less trusting... who knows what deceiving front others will put up so that I will fall into their trap?

I am so happy and so sad. But this is a very VERY good lesson I had and I thanked for this experience.

Attitude, Behaviour and Conduct...