RedAsh's Blog

Today is another normal day.

Nothing great today except finally able to meet the quota of my work and deliver "the" little extra mile... my quota is 6 and I delivered 7. This feels great since I had trouble handling my quota for the last few days; troubling a deal to others, namely Mark, my team leader.

My ignorance of my tasks at hand also caused a great deal of trouble to my other colleages, I keep calling them from time to time to deal with my problem, distracting them from their own work. It feels bad, really bad...

I have somehow gotten the "knack" of my work now, and I am grateful to my colleages, especially Mark, for their patience and willingless to help a total greenhorn up on tracks.

This leads me to understand the importance of patience in a leader. Since a leader has certain restrictions as he needs to lead others as well. And I understand that as a underperformer, I have to perform better in order to repay Mark's help and trouble for shielding me from the upper management for my poor performance...

"In the mid of joking and fooling around, it can only last so long if the basic needs are not met..."

After work, I had to attend my night course. It is a lecture on AIS. While the topic at hand is boring, the lecturer isnt.

The lecturer is a grandpa character, who had protrayed great wisdom and knowledge, and above all the willingless and the patience to share. Questions are answered promptly short and sweet, exactly to the point, beautifully illustrated with simple answers relating to all topics learnt.

HE is also willing to repeat himself several times as long as we asked each time using simpler and simpler terms and expressions till we understands, and is the first lecturer I known to actually implement class interactivity through action alone.

His appetite and his openness to questions, irregardless how silly or irrelevant, makes him very approachable.

At the end of the day, I felt the class is more on a mentor-disciple structure than a lecturer and "mouths-ears" students structure. I can sense deeply within me that he is always willing to impart whatever he knows to us, as long as we took the initiative to ask, and to learn.

I had a great time today at the class. ALthough I must admit I handle it quite badly at the end, when we passed; while I acknowledge him when I saw him while I am fillingmy cup of tea, I quickly walked passed him without any "goodbyes" thanks to my pre-occupied mind.

Somehow, I do not feel so deeply concerned with it cause I can sense he wont take this into his stride and judge people. He is just a straightforward and simple man; few, VERY few of those that I had came across in my entire life.

Indeed, his simplicity is so great that I felt absorbed into his universe and enjoyed so cause there are so much warmth in there, warmth that I know I can depends on...

Thanks Mum, for letting me meeting such a wonderful man. The description of "fasinating little man" is worthy of him. My dream role model when I lived that old, a life of humanly simplicity and peace.

Too bad this great feeling is ruined by that "piece of dirty trash" when I returned home... ARGH...