RedAsh's Blog

You can be a little moody the first part of this week. Do something nice for yourself to lift your spirits. You are in the process of finishing up this phase of your life and are about to launch a new phase. This will take up your time or thoughts for the next few weeks. If your have been smart you have learned some valuable lessons lately. --- Your time off this week will be put to good use. You will be in just the right mood Tuesday as you will be taking a special trip this week and you use the time to renew old acquaintances and look up all the family that got scattered over the years. Wednesday a minor problem, perhaps a spat with the loved one may threaten to cut your trip short but you find an ingenious way to solve it and all goes as planned. The return trip on Friday may see you having some car trouble that you quickly have fixed. This Saturday you could be a big help to your family if you pay close attention to them and learn what they have to say. The week is once again taken over by many activities on a day to day level, oh well, at least you are energised. The moon is in opposition to your sun, let partners make the decisions in order to keep the peace. Comments have to do with intimate details or financial standing, or both.

September 28, 2009
It`s hard to begin a project, and easy to be sidetracked. You have a particular aversion to doing things in the normal way. Budget your time in advance -- you may have less of it than you realize.

~ He ought not to complain of the sea who returns to it a second time.

September 29, 2009
Put your mind on autopilot and let your mouth run. The only thing better is to have someone recording or taking notes on what comes out. You`re nourished by the reflective energy of an audience.

October 1, 2009
You are extremely sensitive to your surroundings and your ambience. Expose yourself to beautiful surroundings today. Visit museums, galleries, beautiful stores, the countryside, parks - whatever. Even ideas will fascinate you. Spend time in bookstores or chatting in coffeehouses
~ Argus at home, a mole abroad.

October 2, 2009
Someone could give you a lovely gift today. This gift might be tangible, it might be cash, it might be a favour, it could be sympathetic support. But somehow -- you`re on the receiving end of something today. Hopefully, you will have an opportunity to repay this kindness. (What goes around comes around.)

Diplomacy is your greatest strength and you may be called on to put it to use this week as you are appointed mediator by your friends and family. Everything you do, you do well and this is no exception. However, do not get too involved in the personal affairs of other people any deeper than you have to, you could end up being the 'bad guy' in their minds if the decisions did not go their way. If you treat all strangers well you may be treating with angels unawares. Dreams are nothing much this week so try meditation for problem solving.

September 22, 2009
You may receive an offer for work or business from overseas. Try to postpone important decisions for a while yet. Family life is happy but there could be undercurrents of tension. Your mate may be feeling off colour today. Try to have an early night if you can.

~ He lies like a toothdrawer.

September 23, 2009
Accept new work only if you can make time for it. Being over-confident could put your credibility at stake. Working late hours combined with heavy responsibilities at home could tell on your health. You need to plan your work properly. Your love life too tends to suffer due to lack of time. Take others into confidence to avoid any misunderstanding.

September 26, 2009
Before you hit the panic button, remember the boy who cried wolf. Work it out on your own, and save those favors for a moment when you really need them. Bribe yourself with a little reward at the end of your labors.

~ He who lives on hope, dies of hunger.

September 27, 2009
As driven as you may be to produce, the simpler pleasures in life are calling out to you. Take a walk with a friend. Fall in love with the idea of a stranger. Every thought in your mind could be the seed of a poem.

~ Better be too credulous than too skeptical.

Normally when we rush to do something we will make a lot of mistake. The mistake will be later cover by someone else or it might spend more time to correct it. Why not start early if you know you got many thing in hand need to be finish by end of the day. But I admit this is human nature, LAZY and DO LAST MINUTE WORK. Because all this human nature, our world now is in chaos and suffer utter consequences.

This is a good time to let others know about your best qualities. Tasteful self-promotion is in order here. Communications of all kinds are punctuated, including those which educate yourself or others. Career or work activity is unusually busy and requires you be at your best.

This week lucky numbers are:
12, 16, 34, 36, 42,

September 16, 2009
You have been suffering silently for a long time. It has affected you physically and emotionally. It is now time to take a decision, be assertive and be prepared for a confrontation. Speak out what you feel and the issues will be resolved. At an outing this evening try to relax and enjoy the company of those who care for you.

~ He who sows thistles reaps thorns.

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I had the greatest breakthrough in the view of life with a few short days with Sean Koh. I can see why he manage to climb his way to the very top. He is VERY street smart.

He taught me alot in the way of survival. In the way of progress and in the way of living a life with precise moment. He told me I am too simple minded and too quick to trust. And I am also too blunt and tactless to the point of "honest to a fault"...
I mean WOW, in mere few interations, he already see through me...

Here is some of the few enlightenment he had given me...

1> When one gain favour, another lose favour.

2> Focus on the head of the pack, or potential head of the pack. One with powerful saying power. Alfiz, Sirhan, Vierra, Tan, Chow, Hisham, Hamza

3> Dont focus too much on IQ, but more on EQ. The reaction to people will change with time. It is better to gather forces greater than you, better than to let the force oppose you.

4> You cant please everyone but you can let everyone not hate you. Make everyone willing to share info with you.

5> Its inevitable that everyone backstabs and you dont even know who. They can be decent towards you at front but throw darts behind your back. But what matters is that everyone are willing to share info with you.

6> Perfect the art of Blur, do not sell your intelligence. It will become cheap and people will become irritated. Know the EQ not IQ!

I felt that the IRC are very friendly and nice persons. They allow me to rest freely and I feel like a family with them - back when I was in my NS life in Pasir Lebar Camp =D. Somehow I am thirsty, maybe too thirsty, after so much seeking for the cohort that mirrors my NS life. Somehow I manage to quench some of this thirst with this IRC group and I am glad. This is one of the few moments in my life that I will have a lasting memory...

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September 17, 2009
While you will put in enough efforts, the task undertaken is not likely to be completed. You may have to wait a little longer for its satisfactory completion. Any move involving estate or legal matters should be undertaken with all care and caution. New decisions can wait until you are more confident of yourself.

September 18, 2009 (Friday)
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Mum, I went out with my new found friends to the Golden Castle. This is the first time I felt so pleasant to go out with people. Somehow I manage to link up my frequency with theirs; I am also more observant and more discreet now with my ABC (Attitude, Behaviour and Conduct). They (Law, Poh, Tey aka Lee and Aaron) called the girls while Addullah and me are singles (I still wanna keep my Virginity and First Kiss for my wedding day =D). I had coke. The night went on pretty much normally without much sexuality going on. It was more of a pure Karaoke session. The total bill was around 240 SGD and I spent around 50 SGD that night. Btw, I slept at around 2am...

September 19, 2009 (Saturday)
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I woke at 5am, and sleep with the Reservist dudes till 11am. Then I accompany them to IPPT. It was all peace... but it is all the calm before the storm... tonight is the end of the Fasting Month, and their "Boss" allow almost half the strength of the whole crew to BOOK OUT... HOWEVER, this was done because Sean and the "Management" are "buddies". Yet, Sean's network was somehow broken when the DO turn out to be someone else (there was a change of hand with no notice made to Sean), and she(DO) reported it to the higher management. The party was cancelled @ 12am, as all the top management are coming down, and Zohree is obviously pissed as he told me to "FO".

I can understand his anger as he is now on the chopping board... at the same time, I also realised that trust is non-existant between us. Although I had no intention of backstabbing them, they are still defensive against me due to me being a regular...

I suddenly realized that they are witnesses and/or victims of this "DOG eat DOG" world... they are veterans in social network... while I am total newb.

Anyway, I added a bartender and a lawyer to my network, and learn something about wine and dining - you want to know about what you eat and drink...

Anyway, this one week had somehow made me more composed as I am now more encustomed with human interactions... a fine thread of surface-trendy relationship with spilt second betrayal... it is all due to conflict of interests aka commonly known as "guarding own arses".

Thank you mum for these valuable experiences as I realised that being good is not enough, being smart is not enough and being wise is also not enough, but being tactful and able to camouflage real intention is the cheese of the way of life...

20th September 2009, Sunday
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WOW Mum, today is an unbelievable day, I learnt a TON lot today... and the whole day stretch as if it was a recap of what I was taught for the past 1 week...

Here I go mum,

I went there earlier and bingo, the lady madam wants a physical rollcall. And there are some hoo-ha; rude remarks and some heated conversion.

Funny, it ended with the madam saying "Selamat Hari Raya".

I stayed with the IRC for the whole day. Once again I was reminded how important it is to be aware of ABC. Because I was somehow betrayed by the same IRC whom I trust too quickly; despite what they had told me that it is ok to do "illegal" stuff when not in uniform, and its already after OH and whatnot... I am skeptical but still give in so I can be part of them... And JACKPOT, I saw Dean holding his handphone aiming at me after Sean give me free "credits" to play with them.

I had to admit that I had let my guard down, and given them a chance for entry to catch my mistakes. Once again, what Sean had said suddenly echoed in my head, I am too trusting. Too foolish to think that I am actually one of them...

It was reveal by one good man that the IRC had taken pics of me when they asked me to rest, and invited me to play with them. I suddenly feel betrayed...

I realised that they do not trust me fully. And what Sean had adviced came true so fast. Another event: The madam blow up alot of matters, involving even my "boss". Friendly in front but backstabs when back turned... how true and how frightening fast... Sean is a true veteran in this kind of "game"...

While I am still figuring why people had to be cruel to each other, which is a quest out of my confort zone, I somehow realised that most people do not trust each other even when they called each other "Brother"... now I suddenly feel that this word is more of a trick than coming from the heart... it is what Sean said, "street survival tricks"

Had a good chat with my "Boss" to understand his directions and his vision of his management style. I had received a lot of insight of the things to be done and the things to be worked out.

1> The style of my management of my fireman, we are not to cover up or save their arses but to make sure they are controlled so that ALL are covered.

2> More discipline in terms of what HAS to be done. For ill-discipline breeds foul system.

3> To develop a learning organisation

4> More interactions with other rota, not just work but outside work stuff. Then refocus on work...

5> To develop a more efficient checking system. If one is too slow, others can use speed to overwhelm you with areas you not yet checked. And to do that, first thing is to know all the items.

6> Be open to opportunities. And be quick to grab it. Its the exposure and experience that you gained that counts.

7> Before faulting others, put the fault on self first. In order to gain the fastest learning rate.

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Mum,

This is one of the richest week I ever had. But it is also the saddest week for I made new friends and face betrayal of my trust I place in them; when they invited me to do "inappropriate" stuff I should have rejected - all these does not let me become more street-wise as what they claimed and it is more of a degrading to myself. But as what my "Boss" had adviced me... I should put the fault on myself, for letting my guard down. I should have taken a stronger stand and be less trusting... who knows what deceiving front others will put up so that I will fall into their trap?

I am so happy and so sad. But this is a very VERY good lesson I had and I thanked for this experience.

Attitude, Behaviour and Conduct...

September 7 th - September 13 th, 2009

You and your partner have much to give each other by way of communication. Slow your thoughts and your speech so it can be thoroughly understood and pondered by the "other." Maybe letters or email would be helpful here. Give yourself plenty of time to absorb what is said to you before you respond.

This week lucky numbers are:
4, 6, 10, 52, 54,

September 8, 2009
It is a good day for catching up with friends though any joint activities you participate in could end up costing you considerably more than you had anticipated. If you have ideas of making an investment pay off for you beware of over anticipation where you spend what you have not actually received. Although people may make all kinds of glad promises, this is not the same as hard cash in the hand.

~ Where there is no sore there needs no plaister.

September 9, 2009
Your eagerness to be a source of charm and sophistication sees you more than ready to meet other people halfway. But although you may feel as though your work prospects have taken a turn for the better, there is no way of guaranteeing that you will see extra funds from what are actually only prospects and potentials. Give things more time to mature before upping your spending rate.

~ ?

September 10, 2009
Knowing your limits has never been your strong point since you like to think you can outrun and outgun the opposition. When it comes to treading the narrow line between legitimate pleasures and excess, you are all too prone to go over the top. The way to relax and have a good time is to know when you should say `it`s time to go`.

September 11, 2009
You will thoroughly enjoy getting together with groups of people and celebrating what you hold in common with them. Perhaps the spending will get too hot to handle, but what`s a little excess between friends? You are prone to put on the style just to prove you are one of the gang. As long as you manage to keep spending and excess within limits then a good time will be had by all.

~ Learning has sour roots, but pleasant fruits.

September 12, 2009
The grand occasion and distinguished guest lists attract you and make you want to be part of the good times you feel are taking place. There is an entry price to pay to enter such charmed circles and it may be far in excess of what you had reckoned. A little influence from the right people may well open some doors for you but do not bank on it.

Wow Mum, I had revisited an old childhood story, "The Happy Prince". This little story seems to depict what all human relationships all started out as...

It seems very different now when I read it, for it brings now meaning and this little story can be summaries as below,

In the beginning of The Happy Prince, we see the Swallow's shallow flirtation with the Reed and his wonder at the Happy Prince being gilded with gold rather than solid gold; in the middle, we see the Swallow help the Happy Prince in his good works; at the end we see his dedication to the living statue, and his willngness to give all simply to remain with him. The beginning is simple. The middle is simple. The end is challenging. Stories invite us to be at our best. Stories remind us when we are not.