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Woke up at 0730 and went down to Orchard at RELC building. Although I reached there at 0915, I finished my payment at 1030. Cos I made a mistake and took the queue number for Cash, rather than NETS. ARGH.

It was then I heard that Channel U is looking for a "fresh face of 2008" and they are offering a price of 25000. I thought it will be "Ming Xin Lian" of some taiwan shows I watched years back. This tempted me to try out, 25k richer in mere minutes, it will be a fool to pass that out.

I reached at the area call "Orchard Cineleisure". Took a form fill it up and join the queue. It was quite a crowd and I am amaze to see so many "star" quality personnel; I am in some lousy jeans and looked tired with dark rings thanks to only 2 hrs of sleep yesterday.

I was interviewed at the queue, and I flatly rejected as I was told I try to keep it low profile. Surprised, the interviewer replied, "how am I going to keep a low profile when I will be going onstage to perform" "WHAT!" is my answer. And I stand there astonished. Anyway, they simply proceed with their interview and I answer shortly. Then they asked me to pose at one of the banner and took some pictures. I was enveloped in fear. It seems things are just no good.

I tried to leave but was stopped and pursuaded to stay and try for I may just win the 25k. What the hell, I can feel my heart bursting. Then some camerawoman come over to ask for the queuing contestant to pose for the program. I rejected again using "too afriad" as an excuse. I just dun want my face to appear on the TV.

Anyway the whole show goes on and I was forwarded to one of the seats, awaiting to be interviewed ON STAGE. It was lunch break, and I think its a good time to go HOME.

During the break, I happen to be with 2 of the judges in the toilet and overheard that they commented on how disappointed they are with the contestants and some other rudy comments.
I went out and buy a drink at Burger King and sat there thinking. "What the Hell, I need that 25k!" Then a quote sounded "Cos you do not have the guts to go out there to claim your stake!" from the movie Wallstreet. My mind is in a twirt and I seem to hardly think straight.

Before me, I saw 3 breath-taking potentials. All males, one of them is a 19 handsome chap who do music, another is a china 28 who is simply a hunk doing his master at Singapore. The last one is an awesome handsome chap who had performed many times elsewhere in some other shows and he also had enticed the help of a SG beauty contestant ranked 4th. He had a awesome body too. Perfect... too perfect... even I am in awe.

He is one role model I show follow, exercise whenever free and can. He plays his xesaphone beautifully too.

Anyway, I know I stand no chances at all. I only think "the best I can do now... is to go home or give it a shot?" Anyway before I reach an answer to that, it was my turn already.

I was asked to go on stage. I simply walk (trying not to tremble much) to the front give a weak smile and nob to one of the judge (the main one I think) and retreat to the microphone.

I was amazed by my own voice as I speak out. "Wow, so this is my voice, kinda good" This somehow give me some confidence ~ there seems to have lots more for me to explore with my body, I seem to not to realise what treasure Mum had bestow upon me.

Anyway, I proceed to intro whatever my brain can come up with, name, age, job, studies and freetime hobbies. Then somehow, from nowhere I suddenly burped out that one of the contestant question that is unanswered. I mentioned that channel U is focusing on asean markets and china ultimately, so maybe my china voice and be sell as a "singapore chinaman". Anyway, I was thinking to myself, "What the heck am I talking about, it is TOTALLY nonsence that I cant even bear to hear myself."

Anyway, the judge said am I done? I dun know why I replied "Erm below is my philosophy" then I started to mumble the lyrics of "Zi Ri". (The judge corrected "its Zi Yue" - no wonder I cant find anything when I keep trying Zi Ri at Google.com). The judge asked me to try again in future after I am prepared. OUT! ~ I was trying to retreat nicely by being offensive to reject the application first... haiz, cant do things right when mind is in a twirl.

Phew, Thank God its over. Or not? Sunny smsed me that it will be boardcast. HAHA, great... I proceed to sms all other better friends about my appearance on TV soon. Anyway, I wrote them an email. Hope they will respect my wish.

Mum bless me and hope I will not appear on TV for the selection. I just want to continue with my quiet private life and be a star to those around me and I am satisfied in that way already.

Interesting night for me, ZhongKai went to Zouk, a disco. I tag along with another guy of call Douglas, a friend of Kai; he drives. Ken joined us later with his colleague and friends.

It is kinda mix feeling about the experience.

It is new to me definately as I never been to Zouk, it kinda starts bad as we are merely minutes to the "premium" price. I ended up paying $28 instead of $13.

It is sort of a lousy start, apart from paying more, we are so seperated that I was alone wandering for the past 2 hours. As we reached at 10, and the show starts at 12. We started rocking to and fro, with Kai's infamous 2 beat L-R rock.

The rock is just ... rock... it is so stone hard for me. I was like a total nerd and I have no idea where to start as I do not have anyone to mimic, other than Kai's 2 beat rocking. Ken join in later and show us real "rock yr body" ~ Ken sure can rock!

I was unable to cope to the environment and stand aside to observe Ken and Jeff in action. Then a group of 3 girls suddenly drop infront of me, when I was standing by the wall at the DJ ~ I was shocked as they are practically iches away from my body, and are closing in fast. I quickly sidestep away but one of the girl quickly move to my new position, once again, I sidestep again. The 3 girls understood my intention and leave the spot quickly laughing ~ they sure know how to tease a new guy.

We retreated awhile, Ken gone to look for his friend, while Kai look for Douglas. I accompany Kai along and I get a free drink of alchoholic orange drink ~ whatever the name of the drink is. Douglas is busy hanging around with his pub friends, and courting new girls. Jeff press him to hit the dance floor as it is getting the flow.

When he was ready, Douglas shove us into the crowd right to the side of a bunch of beautiful girls. Douglas immediately show his "power" and charm on one of the girls, a pretty girl with large eyes and small statue. I was some distance away from them and start "rocking" like Jeff's motion. I wasnt interested in girls (or rather, creatures of the night as I would call, girls frequent such places go for fast in fast out. Not my taste for sure) as I am looking for potential target to mimic and learn dance moves. I was almost choked with the consistent "smoking" of clouds.

As it is very crowded, unlike MOMO where there are still space to trade motions/moves.

Ken joined us later and he is also attracted to one of the girls. He went up and asked for her name but was rejected flatly. From his expressionless face, I must say his attempt is quite fruitless... same to Douglas but he is swift, he keep moving from one bunch to another bunch of girls - wasting no time in picking new targets.

I proceed to tease Kai, I mimic his 2 beat rock, and I ask Ken to join in ~ it is really cartoony. And it does help to revive the "dead" (the bunch of girls look really tire and restless) atmosphere ~ and the other guys seem to be more interested in hyping the girls and "hook" them up then try to dance proper. ~ The girls too seem to be more incline to attention paid to them then dancing to the rythm of the music. The "small stature" girl performed a new move I never seem and I gave her a thumb up (to Jeff as signal however). The other girls seem to saw it and all started to dance into motion. (I wonder if they are trying to grab my attention) However, a new blood of boys cut into the scene, they divided me from Jeff and then they wall up the girls. They then proceed to move the girls to a corner ~ nice trick. ~ funnily the girls immediately stop and stand there to chat instead.

I simply went on dancing to the rythm. Then I was joined by some other girls. I notice they keep looking at me... anyway, I was looking into the ceilings as usual, to catch the rythm and lights to capture the atmosphere. Then a really funny scene happens, just as I was doing a rotation on the spot, one of the dancers (male) throw his head up and hit my face with his hair, one of the girl suddenly turn to me and shake her boobs and slither her body down... my friend say this signals a girl interest, such that she willing to show her boobs. Too bad, all this while, I was being comboed repeatedly by the hair that I wasnt looking at all as I busy covering my face. I realised only when she was getting up as I rotate back to her general direction ~ she was so Low down... OMG. Her friend laugh and shoot her head, while the girl turn away and shrud her shoulders, then they went off. Ouch~ ? but I have to thank the boy who haired me, for its a Phew for me. I have no way with such girls.

Then Ken's bunch of friends arrived. Ken bring me out to greet his friend and also to exchange our coupons for drinks (2 free drinks). Ken's friends consist of 3 guys and 1 girl (GF to one of the guy).

We bring the drink to the dance floor (there is a slide wall table for drinks). After the drink, we start to dance. Ken was fine, and he tease his friends alot. With the alcohol in effect, I start to perform more wild moves. It seems to impress alot of people around me, as I notice all the eyes seem to be on me, as my move is kinda consistent to the beat of the background music (my normal upkeep is 4 beats max ~ liquor seems to increase that) - but no good news to me however, as the eyes of girls which isnt too bad but this will also translate to more angry eyes of the boys which is no good.

Ken then exit the dance floor again to locate his other friend, who is MIA. I tag along as we are caught in a fight between some males. Only much later do we know that one of them is Douglas, and he is required to go the police station to lodge a report. We move over to Zouk. I made horrible discovery then, I realised that there are MANY UV alpha lights around that area. OMG. Realising I am wearing black, which is mass absorbing radiation, I quick exit that area and return to Phutre area and dance.

One thing that worries me is that Ken's friend GF eyes seems to be on me too much... hope I not imagining things, anyway dun like that. And I started to tune down my moves and move further away and join Kai. Ken's friends disturb Ken and push him to one girl who is dancing with her boyfriend. Not once, not twice but thrice. I raise my hand to my forehead to signal a "sorry" to her boyfriend, who is gentlman enough to smile back. Then with my dazzle mind, I suggest to Ken to pull his friend together. Ken refuse then I woke up. Yea I could spark another disbute.

I was getting sleepy and start to lose the tempo of the music and started to shake my body rather than dancing, to the music. I was kinda drifty and sleepy then but I was lucky to get a spot big enough for my moves. A quick look at the HP shows it is already 2am, of 12/1/08.

One of the girls beside me seems to be attracted to me when I was doing my more aggressive and expressive movements; and she already had a rather handsome boy dancing with her. As I went to join Kai, she keep pressing her body against my back. Everytime she did this, I halt my movement and move forward or to the sides. She keep on doing this for 6 times, and MAYBE finally realising I was ignoring her, gave me a kick on my legs and move away... Wat luck... this is call "leg sweep" and this is thought to be unlucky as described by my friend.

I return to continue dancing, Jeff then try to push me to one of the girls infront of me, under Ken's friends signalling behind me, I notice that as I looked into Jeff eyes. I wrapped my right arms around Jeff and sway along with his motion, but when we sway to Jeff direction, I apply a little force so he goes lower, then with more force is applied each repetition, so he will be unknowingly going lower and near to the girl beside him. He realised what I was doing but kinda too late as he was too low and too near the girl, but I release him before he touches her. I then give a quirky smile to Jeff and shake my finger to indicate a "no-no". We had a good laugh and Jeff return to "sliding" girls.

Later somehow I was found to be somewhere near a corner and safe and peaceful doing my wild moves. It was sometime much later at 4pm we decided to call it a day. At the exit, we found lots of vomited waste all over the floor, one of Ken's friend contribute one pool too. I also witness many girls are knock out senseless and are brought to cab with their "male friends" *I hope.

Ken's friends, Ken, Jeff and I went to nearby coffee shop for supper. I ordered a tae tarik, while other have prata and drinks. Had some conversation, share my view on Zouk with comparision to MOMO. Then Ken's friend went home while Ken, Jeff and I return for Douglas - we need his car!

It took awhile for Douglas to come out. Somehow, fate perhaps? The girl with "small stature and big round eyes" stood beside us. Douglas ask Jeff to approach her for the name, to treat it as his birthday present. And the girl return "I Like Girls". We laugh out loud, it is a hilarious rejection.

Jeff then goes to fetch Douglas's car, with a $2 tip handed over. As we are driving out, Douglas spotted 2 gals about to board a cab, he quickly roll down the window and call out to them to get in his car. One of the pair his friends, china dolls, I only remember the girl is call May ~ darn remind me of someone unpleasant.

We proceed to have another supper, at much dismay to Ken and I as he needs rest for tomorrow lessons and I am on the clouds. Anyway, at the Punggol Nasi Lemak coffeeshop, we settle down for some drinks and some chat.

Douglas earn himself a new friend from the introduction of his friend. He really likes girls, HAHA. He then proceed to take photos with his new friend. Then at another table, sat another girl who is actually decent looking and looked decent no makeups and indecent dressing. (but a girl with 2 males at 5 am somewhere so isolated is definately no decent girl in my book) Douglas laid his eyes on her, and asked May, his new friend to ask for her name, when her 2 male friends retreat somewhere for a smoke.

Douglas proceed to sit beside her and take some photos (he claim it is his first attempt at such public street). Luckily the 2 male friends of hers are not boyfriends. Or else I can smell trouble. No Next Time for sure ~ that is what I told myself.

Reached home at 6am, I took a shower and sleep at the bench. 1 and half hour later, I need to go RELC building to pay my examination entry fee. $1560... now that hurts!!!

Today is an interesting day.

Learn a good joke from my lecturer.

The joke was about my lecturer in his army days,

after the nonsentical training at BMT he was finally posted out somewhere to some camps, where he never had to knock it down ever again in his life.
then one fine day his company was assigned a new OC, from another division.

My lecturer did not know this OC till their path crossed.

So that particular fine day, this OC, who was wearing his admin attire demanded my lecturer to knock it down 50, for not greeting him. "My lecturer added that he learnt later after taking some punishment, it is best to play dead. Then they will be very scare and they will then treat you like godfather from then on.

That OC, as my lecturer described, is the type who see someone and feels uneasy if nothing is done, and will therefore "let something be done".

After he is done with my lecturer, he spotted another guy jogging past in home clothes and he asked if my lecturer knows that particular guy and asked for his rank and name, my lecturer told him that he seems to see that guy in the camp before, and he recall that guy seems to be a private reservist.

That OC immediately call that guy over and after done with his speech of beautifully lathen Hokkien vulgarities, he asked for that guy rank name and company. That guy replied "He is the commandant of the camp".

~ My lecturer then concluded till this day he should be still signing extras and remain a Major. And the best part? He did nothing, he simply let the OC undone himself.

Beautiful story isnt it Ma? A good lesson learnt indeed.

Oh, Lawrance, colleage from PSB, asked me ACCA details after learning Ken is attending one. He is 29, married and finished NS 2 years ago. After querying Ken, the ACCA is divided into 3 parts, MCP > something > ACCA.

With MCP costing 4800 SGD, excluding exams, and 9 modules to take.

Good lukc to him, he is a pleasant guy. Wish him all the best in his endeavour.

Missed my lecture for CIS 314 darm

But my mod for Dow is finally in its final stage,

All the models ingame are accounted for and we manage to have everything in place.

Things feel great and I can finally say

" I AM GETTING THE PERKS! "

So this is how the feeling is for a success, true success after 2 weeks of toil.

Ma, I do have now a taste of how things are. In management, where getting people together. getting people to help out. This is a fantastic feeling.

Ok, enough rejoicing on my little success, time for study.

Thanks Ma, for giving me all these and making possibilities possible.

Oh with the new contract with SCS, I am deployed to PSB, some chance to meet up with Collin and Rafik. The new Project in charge is call Roger, cool guy he given absolute trust to his trusted lieutenant Farry, who is another cool guy.

Also had meet up with Ah'Ber and Lawrance from OACSU team. Mentioned Shawn awhile ago, looks like I had influenced him into seeking new jobs and exploring new lands.