RedAsh's Blog

August 31 th - September 6 th, 2009

This week you are finding ingenious ways to purchase what you want and still save money. This is an excellent time to buy property or a business. The first part of this week you could be in a position to find a good steady income so look around carefully. If you can invest now, you could show a nice steady gain in your portfolio as time goes on.

This week lucky numbers are:
12, 14, 26, 42, 50,

Mum, today I had a deeper realization of society unspoken laws... I had grew alot today...

First of all, when people are in trouble, when people are in the same boat, they will either unite to help each other out, or kill each other to ensure own survivability.

For the first time, my suggestion gained the support of my peers... afterall, I am a reject in CDA... after the rest had a taste of having to bite the dust of writing the L&D report, they, Darius and Furqan, immediately agreed to my idea of working together to come up with a compiled list of known equipment issues; which is impossible if I am to do it alone. Zhuri however isnt as keen as the others, I assume that he has yet to write any L&D report, and therefore does not understand the misery behind it - he is turning out LF already. Anyway, Fazril is also safe since he is already turning out LF.

The next lesson comes with a hefty, or what I should call a death defying experience Mum. It was my fault nonetheless. For I failed to carry myself, it was a misconduct, and it is perceived as a bad discipline; I already had enough with my encounter with the PM and the then Deputy P.L ...

The whole encounter is a total scare and it is a HUGE scare... for Jim first shoot out with an all out kill. I am totally awaken if I am still in my dream, hell I may have nightmares after this with his "I AM NOT GOING TO LET IT GO EASY, I WILL MAKE SURE YOU ARE GOING TO GET HELL". Fortunately, I was not alone and the other guy had the connection to dissolve this all peacefully...

I need to watch my own conduct, it is self discipline, an effort to groom self and carry self. It is all a message to others of my character, for actions speak louder than words... I need to watch my behaviour from now onwards...

Please Mum, bless me with MORE awareness, especially self-awareness... thank you...

September 2, 2009
With your inclination to push on ahead regardless, you will be liable to get into some rather strange situations. It is not always easy to discover why people are saying one thing and doing another. The more you probe behind the scenes the greater the chances that you will uncover the truth about others` ambitions. No one is being entirely straight with you about what they are up to.

Wow Mum, 1st September past and then on 2nd September, I show my weakness again with a tired outlook, and people just doesnt like that; irregardless the reason. Once again, conduct, behaviour, attitude => A B C... the very basic to survive in SCDF, of course, not forgetting knowledge and practicality execution.

Anyway, last duty for some reason, our uncle came up with some funny ideas.

September 3, 2009
You will adore being in the thick of things, rubbing shoulders with humanity and your significant other. Human interaction is what you crave and believe you cannot have too much of a good thing. But when you find everyone within your orbit is determined to liven up proceedings it can all get slightly out of hand.

~ When the time comes, even a rat becomes a tiger.

September 4, 2009
Spare some time to get to know those you only know on a more formal working relationship basis. Although everyone has over high expectations of where current joint endeavors will lead, it is important to get to understand who you are working with so that you can introduce an unwelcome note of caution at some point when they are more ready to listen.

However extravagant men's desires, they hope to see them gratified.

September 5, 2009
You are in love with love itself and can easily believe what is really a wish fulfillment where you believe you are loved only for yourself and not your possessions or money. Beware of mixing the two. Confused messages and signs from others need to be read very astutely if you are to avoid ending up nursing a major loss. A fool and their money, are as ever, soon parted.

~ However extravagant men's desires, they hope to see them gratified.

September 6, 2009
With your eagerness to invest a great deal of your personal prestige in defending what is rightfully yours and your family`s or home country`s, you are easily overcome by huge waves of sentimentality. If you are unable to separate out facts from fancies you could start over promising what you can do for those you feel are under your guidance and protection.

August 24 th - August 30 th, 2009

It is only two more weeks now that you have to work hard before you can relax or take some time off. Everything around you is beginning to wind down and then you can make a new schedule for yourself at a slower pace. By then a promotion or a new opportunity will be presented to you. You have to wait, though, until the timing is right to take up this new position.

This week lucky numbers are:
10, 28, 56, 62, 76,

August 25, 2009
Conditions are favorable for sorting out financial matters. If you are hoping to receive word about a grant or other funding, stay by the phone. If you are worried about your monetary position, talk with your banker or financial adviser. Your situation can be made more stable and more secure if you take the initiative.

~ A rose by any other name would smell as sweet.

August 26, 2009
Friends and associates may not give you the kind of support you need. Your self-esteem is at stake. It is vital that you spend time with people who are positive and encouraging. Older acquaintances are your best company, especially if there are personal problems you want to discuss.

~ You can't tell a book by its cover.

August 27, 2009
Behind-the-scenes negotiations concerning money and business mean that you are able to finalize a deal at long last. Discretion is vital. If you are seeking funding, it may appear quite suddenly and out of the blue. There could be an unexpected gift or donation from an outside source.

August 29, 2009
You should feel very much in tune with life and the people around you and also more centered than usual. However, when it comes to partnerships, it is a different matter. Somebody who is just a friend at the moment has stronger feelings toward you.

~ He who lets the goat be laid on his shoulders is soon after forced to carry the cow.

August 30, 2009
This is another excellent time for pursuing your goals. Follow your own initiative as much as possible. Gatherings involving neighbors or relatives should be fun.

= Mum, today, on this Sunday August 30, 2009. I got shot in my arse for covering up for a friend, Darius. I give chance for Darius and wrote off most of the items, but the other guys are hot on their heels to get to place my neck on the chopping board.

So kinda sad... need to find a black rubber glove...

Hi Mum, its been another long while since I want to put down my thoughts...

Its been a long week, a lot of things happened, good and bad.

In this very short duration of one week, I encountered many many events...

The same old gaining unknown popularity, then exposure of my weaknesses (Slow, weak, lack of urgency, Blur, LeGong, Anti-social) to the others, and the eventual "dwindling down" of my popularity among my peers and superiors.

My first 3 cases are direct and straight forward, no chaos and no qualms. Everything had already bite the dust. But then there is this one case where things has yet settle when I arrived... I made several mistakes, transmitting over global channel, confused by men, and men not following orders, unsure of what is to be done immediately, getting panicky and upbeat.

And after that, I had cases of where the taking/handling over past issues haunting me back like shitmas past. I was questioned on the availability of items that I had previously pointed out... and all these I had to trouble my Mdm RC which I feel very bad... for I had great respect for her.

I had the new RC, pointing out several issues that I had difficulty with... first off, is my low stamina to heat. One of the more interesting thing he had noted is that anyone is capable of work, that is, doing their work. But it is the learning part that will make the work interesting.

Also, I am impressed with his way of explaining things... the SOP that we had, and the improvisation of it; or more rather, the reaction to change of the situation that we will be encountering...

He wants the Rota to be a learning rota, and he wants to do away with the old school culture... which I had no idea what he really is talking about as I miss out the first half of his debrief.

I only know he has a lot of unhappiness with the current rota and BIG HUGE changes will be coming in. I think my attitude with him is very wrong, and I should change my attitude. I should not ignore him and act blur and act as if he is invisible; its just that I feel very pressurize with his presence... for some funny unknown reasons...

Also, I think I had to ask him about why he declared my whole section down during the whole exercise... I could not figure out why, I need to know more about how things work... I need to make thing work out more gracefully. With Matra down, I need to know why sending a Messenger to Staging was not enough. And that "Fred" is what they said a "basketball player", no intent to help, and no grace of accepting fault. I went in without the necessary info. When confronted and revealed the truth, he announced openly that he is not going to teach me anything anymore, oh gosh, he can pretty much save it then and let the whole Rota suffers; He did not tell me much anyway. Helmi is the one who is very very helpful to me.

Anyway, one thing that I had with Furqan is that he valued Zuhri over me; or rather, he only care for himself and Zuhri and totally ignore (ugly word: fuck care) my welfare. He immediately leaped Rota 1 to save Zuhri, and announced that he told me about it on the 16th August 2009, after I had completely handed over to Rota 1 on the 15th August 2009; this is already the concrete proof that he did not view me as a true friend. And the funniest part is that he told me that he handed the paper over to me on the 16th August 2009, when the truth is 14th August 2009. I hope he did that out of desperation... for I view him as a friend... but as all relationship are, it has to be mutual and 2 sided.

It is obvious that he is reluctant to write the L&D Report, for the damage was due to negligence; a chargeable offense. An obstacle to his way to University... as such, he needs to save himself (ugly: his own arse) at the expense of another (ugly: using other people skin). It is ugly when one needs to bastardize others for their own mistake; and for me, I will only retaliate and remember it once for the rest of my life... they can only bastardize me once at the expense of my trust to them. For note, "Fred" is down... many more to go... some pending...

Your sign is Rooster. 2009.

The Ox (not your dog) is your best friend. In fact, if you have not yet become amorously entangled with one of these steadying creatures, you have been missing the last train to paradise. Oxen tone Roosters down. Their sedate influence chops the Rooster velocity in half and allows for introspection and self-realization. As you Roosters normally do not fancy soulful thought and are just about never after anything more profound than a new outfit, a showplace house or a gourmet meal, the presence of the Ox this year helps add depth to your excessively materialistic ruminations.


This year you may find out that there is more to life than stuff. Love is in the air and in this relationship you are the “lovee” i.e., the other person is desperately fond of you. Because you are so certain of this unconditional affection, you tend to imagine that you can get away with all manner of capriciousness (affairs, flirting, weekends off etc). Be more gentle. The lover in question is beginning to learn to set limits and you may lose him or her to someone far sweeter and more attentive. You would do well to order up some gorgeous flowers and tickets to a tropical island paradise for two or your lovER may get itchy feet. Money will be plentiful. But stop buying things anyway. Hold off on all major purchases – not because it’s wasteful – but because nobody really needs to own three BMWs.


Your business life has been quite uncertain over the past few months. You still had plenty to do and your ideas for projects were all sound, but nothing seemed to actually pan out. Now, as you enter the Ox year, you will notice a more favorable outcome to whatever you undertake. These positive results evolve quite naturally and will use a great deal less of your brain power and not tax your nervous system so acutely. One thing you should keep in mind this year is not to make hasty decisions without first seeking sage advice. Older people will guide you wisely. They not only have more experience; but they are not as single-minded as you about following through come what may. Your tendency to barrel on ahead with a fixed notion without looking left, right or maybe can be your undoing. Soft pedal it. Say less. Be more circumspect. Deign ask for counsel and then heed said counsel. Don't blink. Do what is suggested and you will succeed. Proceed with what your gut tells you and you may be tossing in one of the clunkier monkey wrenches you have so far chucked into the works.


Ox years are beneficial for Roosters in more ways than one. Your health will remain steady in this year. With the exception of a cold or the recurrence of chronic allergies, you should sail right through unscathed. Money is for saving.
Finally, you can forget about the inheritance you expected might drop into your lap this year. Neither your wealthy Aunt Matilda or old Uncle Louie has any intention of dying quite yet. There will be a crucial phase of family illness. But don't get your hopes up. When least you expect things to turn around, Uncle Louie and Aunt Martha will be scampering off together on a cruise around the Mediterranean.

You are probably feeling very intense about your finances this week. This is not a good time to discuss it because your mouth could run away with your tongue and cause you trouble. This is also not a good time to make promises you may not be able to keep at a later time. You need a practical budget, something where you can save a bit each week.

This week lucky numbers are:
12, 16, 34, 36, 42,

August 17, 2009
This is a fine day to complete difficult and pesky chores and to get on with your work routine. It`s also excellent for buying equipment for work or hobbies, browsing through a used-book store, having work done on your car, and making contact with people who will be important later.

~ When the tree is down every one runs to it with a hatchet to cut wood.

August 18, 2009
This a special day for you. It`s an excellent day for completions and compromises and for meeting a romantic person. Others give you sympathy, understanding, and goodwill today. What you read this evening could be very thought-provoking.

~ Riches fall not always to the lot of the most deserving.

August 19, 2009
You feel rewarded in love matters today and have an urge to be close to someone else. You want to please others and be given affection in return. Seeing an old flame could be emotionally lethal, however. Traveling for business goes well but is only so-so for pleasure.

August 20, 2009
Work is not uppermost in your mind today. A trip begun now will prove to be delightful. You want to be loved deeply and are able to give much love in return. A romantic companion at your side is your fondest wish. Make sure your appearance is at its best.

Don't be pessimistic about your prospects. Consider all things possible until they or unless they are clearly proven not to be so. Treat the world you live in as your friend and confidently expect it to support you, generously. You may, if you pursue this brave policy, encounter the occasional setback or disappointment which you could have avoided by being more circumspect. But this is a very small price to pay for the breakthrough that you are going to make, if (and only if) you approach the day with an open mind.

*circumspect = Synonyms: careful, vigilant, guarded.

This week lucky numbers are:
16, 20, 22, 26, 68,

August 10, 2009
What starts off as a healthy discussion today could degenerate into a nasty little fight if you aren`t vigilant. Suggest that the matter be taken up again later. Then contemplate your emotional Have you been holding back your true feelings? Get some relaxation in this evening.

~ Sleep after selling horses and elephants.

August 11, 2009
Do something extravagant today. Domestic harmony brings you a great deal of joy and satisfaction now, but you and your mate will benefit from your taking some time for yourself. Some degree of self-sacrifice is necessary tonight, but don`t go overboard. Playing the marty won`t get you anywhere.

August 14, 2009
Your search for answers which began as mere curiosity becomes an obsession today. Education and local travel are emphasized but don`t get roped into a long car trip with a well-intentioned admirer. You will end up wanting to strangle this one if you are confined with him or her for very long.

~ He that well considers the world, must own he has never seen a better.

August 15, 2009
A continuing emphasis on being up front about emotional upsets and uncertainties allows loved ones to make their own choices. Stay on top of your financial records since a small mistake can cause big problems now.

August 16, 2009
Today you excel at pulling rabbits out of a hat. It is a skill that requires doing a lot with a little. Business dealings require complete cooperation for success. Appeal to others in terms that they can understand. If you talk over their heads they will be turned off.

~ The silence resulting from absence has destroyed many a friendship.

August 17, 2009
This is a fine day to complete difficult and pesky chores and to get on with your work routine. It`s also excellent for buying equipment for work or hobbies, browsing through a used-book store, having work done on your car, and making contact with people who will be important later.

"Let us be thankful for fools. But for them the rest of us could not succeed."
- Mark Twain

Let the Drama Mamas guide you through the sticky business of dodging drama, toward becoming that player everyone wants in their group. Drama Mamas Lisa Poisso and Robin Torres are real-life mamas and experienced WoW players. And just as we don't want our precious babies to be the ones kicking and wailing on the floor of checkout lane next to the candy, neither do we want you to become known as That Guy on your server. We're taking your questions at DramaMamas (at) WoW (dot) com.

Sometimes, there simply are no words that do justice to our friends' lack of play skills. You know the people I'm talking about. We say, "He's a good guy, but ..." or "She's a real sweetie, for someone who ..." Argh! It's the last halves of those sentences that wipe the raid group every time.

So what's a player to do when his friends turn out to be scrubs, terribads, n00bs or any other variety of out-of-tune toon? Sometimes there's hope – but we'll be honest, sometimes things are beyond repair. Either way, you're going to have to decide: can you fix it, or can you grin and bear it?

I see, now I know what it all boils down... DRAMA... people who will kick dust and rub dirt on my face...

Regardless the reason, red eye or whatever.

Get the money, Evade Bitches, Evade Tricks.

August 3 th - August 9 th, 2009

The planet Jupiter has now changed signs and it is not favorable to you. For the next year you will have to pull in your horns and be cautious in any financial or legal aspects of your life. Be satisfied with what you have as there are no more good opportunities for you during that time. Good ideas come to you in the next few weeks with workable plans.

August 3, 2009
If you have been wanting to apply for a loan, whether from an institution or from a family member, this is the day to do it. Make your case clearly and with regard for all the parties concerned. A little separation from those around you can be a good thing today.

~ Many kiss the hand they would gladly see cut off.

August 5, 2009
Feel free to allow your imagination to roam today, you will get great ideas for a project. Today`s focus is on travel and a variety of experiences. There are people in your life right now who are consulting with you about their most intimate problems.

~ Don't judge a book by its cover.

August 6, 2009
Business affairs and money matters are confused. Erratic aspects cause interruptions and distractions today. Friends come to you for advice and help, but you feel you can`t rely upon their words or motives. Lethargy overtakes you this evening and interferes with romance.

August 8, 2009
You present your ideas effectively and make progress in home, family, and local matters today. The domestic situation can become somewhat upsetting after dark, however, and you may want to go out for a while. You may be longing for forbidden romance now.

~ Where there's no good within, no good comes out.

August 9, 2009
Your home and family are your first priority today, although outside interests tend to get in the way. Secretive trends and a tendency to make arbitrary decisions should be distrusted. Be tactful with a loved one and calm and understanding about money matters.

Folly is the product of all countries and ages.