RedAsh's Blog

I do not know why, butI feel today is a good day.

Karen is going to my (late mother's sister) 2nd aunt's house. And she is supposed to reach there by 6pm. For the jolly well first time, she reached there prior to the expected time. A good sign (hopefully, my aunt did not cover up for Karen... o'well).

Anyway, Karen went to her house after a project meeting (as she claims, but I overheard her talking to her boyfriend on the phone to meet her in the morning...) with her teammates. She went there with her boyfriend.

My aunt's husband was shock to see Karen dating for he remarked "Dating at such young age?!" as my aunt told me. (Yeah, I am very shocked AND worried too... thats why I requested her to not to be too serious with her previous 18 BGR... and I always adviced her to end it - before the relationship developed too far, like the current "getting-out-of-hand" relationship with her latest BF, Daniel, which Ken did not prevent...)

The focus of today is that I feel safe. VERY SAFE, for Karen with my 2nd aunt. This 2nd aunt of mine draws a very similar "feeling" to my late mother - in the way things are dealt and the approaches used. I hope she can help to plunge the hole in Karen's soul, which unfortuntately aunt Meemee, Ken and I failed to. I blew my top after gentle approaches for almost 2 years, Ken is at his own throat after a month, and Meemee has started to call her "hopeless" after a merely 3 days...

BUT what Karen needs now is for someone to truely believe in her - although she needs to show it through her actions and behaviours... which, sadly, she always fails to...

2nd Aunt did brought up the topic where I should try to accept Karen... butI knew deeply I cant, at least for now... for she had depreciated my highly regarded late mother, who is also her own mother. I only know time will tell, and through Karen's very own actions, behaviours, and achievements... just like Ken... when he never take care of mum when she is sicked and continued with his ways of errs to make mother, when he made a fussed and complained about the fodd mother cooked for us when she is sicked, when he refused to look after Karen at 2nd Gugu house at Serangoon when I am in Army, and ignoring all the problems faced by dad;s workshop, giving dad's car keys to my dad's siblings... argh, endless... where even now I am also trying to reaccept him... for I see some changes in him... albeit still too "some"...

Although I have yet to completely accept Ken, but I am still observing. If he is true to what Master Soh had told me, a guy who can only "cannot"... For now, his way of thoughts and behaviours are still abit "happy-go-lucky", not totally mature, as reflected more obviously from his guardianship of Karen of late... haiz... ah well, another "time will tell" whatever.

Mum, I had to thank you for 2nd aunt's intervention. I somehow feels deeply, Karen can find the confidence and faith that she deperately needs, at 2nd aunt house. Although 2nd aunt's husband is an issue, but I hope 2nd aunt's motherly approach could touched Karen's heart. And 2nd aunt's 4 year-old pure and cheerful daughter (she is simply adorable!) could help Karen to reflect what she needs...

Mum please help Karen, bless her with wisdom to see, and the will to walk, the path to greater good and a brighter tomorrow. Please let this be the REAL somewhere Karen seeks, the little something Karen needs for her soul...