There is a good distraction tonight, a phone call from my 2nd Aunt.
She shelled some light for me in the process, some truth and reality in the working reality. She pinpointed one of my major weakness and strength, my over-zealous keen sense of trying new things out and looking for better alternatives.
She told me that while its good, the timing should be right. I had helped 2nd Aunt in her work once. JUST once.
What happened then was that she told me of her approach, but I know that it is inefficient and I tried to figure things out. Many mistakes were made in the process.
2nd Aunt told me that this had turned her off, including any other employers. They want the productivity. She did mentioned that from her observation since I am young, I tend to do things slowly in the start, but I will keep picking up speed and I usually end up much faster. The direct opposite of Ken; who starts up fast but fails to pick up more speed along the way and ended up behind the race. The same thing my late mum had told to me and Ken when we are much much younger...
She suggested to me that I should do the stuff in the company/empoyer's approach, during the official working hours. But I should used my personal hours then to seek out better alternatives.
This advice come like a sudden blow to my head producing many sparks. A simple answer to an issue I never though to be problem since my childhood days. I have had always consider this to be my characteristic, but never realised the proper application of it to the working society environment.
I thanked my aunt for her constructive criticism. Mum, sometimes life can be interesting. While (social) life is all about advancing and progressing, a short and simple backtrack to forgotten memories can be rewarding too.