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May, our maid, is returning to her hometown for 2 weeks after 2 years of services. Time for some hands-on and back to hard cold reality.

All isnt much of an issue except father, (my late mum had taught me well in the ways of home responsibilities) for there he cannot be totally independent since his stroke.

Funny thing here is that initially, our Xiao gugu, Meemee, planned for us to send father back to our 2nd gugu's house to be taken care of for the following 2 weeks, since it is also nearer to father's workshop at Sing Meng Road. She refused since expenses are unclaimable now. Enough said.

Today, Ken, Jeffrey (my cousin), my dad and I went out to Ken's ex elder sister lens and frames shop in Marina Square. I was keen after Ken mentioned of $7 frame, so was Jeffrey. As usual, the higher the expectation the greater the disappointment. What I see in the shop are all branded frames, Gucci etc, all hundreds and up. I drop the idea of making another additional pair of specs for myself. Jeffrey did go ahead with 2 specs, using unbranded frames.

Then we dine at "Carl Jr" for Ken recommended their Beef Chilli Cheese Fries and I had a "Super Star" double patties burger. The chicken and beef patties are very similar to Burger King but twice as expensive. Somehow, I prefer BK's Big Whopper (it is much more manageable). But, the Beef Cheese Fries is much superior to KFC's Cheese Fries.

We then head to the IT fair at Suntec City and we returned home with Ken's ex elder sister. 2nd Aunt called for me and mentioned to me about Karen's progress. She told me Karen told her boyfriend to not to call 2nd Aunt's house anymore for 2nd Aunt's husband (is much as conservative as me) and dislike such activities. So all seems well... yes "SEEMS" to be well... for I know Karen too well. Karen is always like this, she promised a nice decent picture but can never deliver the actual stuffs. At most, she will show u the inital work but never consistent. I warned 2nd Aunt of this, and she told me to give Karen a chance to prove herself... haiz... I HAD given her so many... so many chances... ah well, what the problem with another...

Another interesting issue is that she also told me Karen is doing project with her friends, and she suggested KAren to do it at our house. (ALL ALONG, I been asking Karen to invite her friends (and any of her boyfriends) to home for ALL project works, but she had never complies... cos they hardly spent more than 30 minutes on the REAL work...)

Whatever the case, 2nd Aunt told me that Karen will be fetching her friends, 4 of them, at Bedok MRT station... and she told me she had instructed Karen not to wander around with her friends... This is a TESTAMENT, yes... a testament... to show if Karen is willing to change... for the better... or not... She had to prove it through her own actions, the actual "deliverables"...

Somehow I had no more expectations from Karen, I only told 2nd Aunt and myself that all will go well tomorrow... for it will be Karen's undoing herself... actions speaks more than words... In the past, I would be planning all the rewards and the privileges in advance... for I had still had trust in her then... now its a joke to think about it... and to think a month ago Ken is still trying brush my claims on Karen... now he understood what I am preparing him about... ironically sad thing isnt it...

Mum, I had been thinking alot, time is running out, I had my own life, and I had contributed my time to Karen, and it had all turned out to be waste of my time. I will be working soon and tomorrow will be a showcase of what Karen will do when there are no one to guide her when I am persuing my career after my studies... Forgive me should I decide to send her to rehab centre... I am sorry Mum, truely I had failed you in Karen, but I shall not fail the family, I shall try my very best to bring glory to the family... Please bless me Mum... I need your blessing to give me strength.

ADDITION:
2nd aunt called me much later tonight again. She told me that Karen did not want to come back home to do her project due to my presence. Hence, Karen will be doing the project at the void deck of 2nd aunt's flat. Sounds like a perfect setup for another wandering.

2nd Aunt now asked me to cooperate with her. She told me that she told Karen I had initiate to request her back. I am not. Actually, my one and only intention is to send Karen to rehab centre. And sending Karen to 2nd Aunt house is only for me to observe and to confirm my decision.

Irregardless, on 2nd Aunt's behalf, she told me to suppress my original intention and to give Karen a chance to rekindle the bond between us - but I will be the one to make the retreat for KAren cannot think straight yet. Haiz... hope the sacrifice is worth it.

Interestingly, 2nd Aunt also reveal to me that Daniel (Karen's boyfriend) revealed to her that his parent also do not understand him (or his needs rather). I was furious. HE smoked, not interested in study, ask for money for outing and many more, and he expect his parents to understand him?!

I simply draws up a simple illustration:-
A thief steals something, get caught and reasoned that the police and law does not understand his plight. Hence, the thief has NO fault for it is the police and law at fault.

DOing the wrong things IN THE FIRST PLACE and expect others to understand? Advices and gentle reminders given but only to be ignored and cast away? Repeat the same wrong action and the unwillingless to try to correct oneself, and expects others to understand?

When did the society became such a paradise?

Nonetheless, I thanked 2nd Aunt for she had tried very hard to repair the bond, and therefore I shall not invalidate her effort, but rest is dependent on Karen now... Mum, its time to judge...