RedAsh's Blog

Over active, hyber active ... whatever the word is used to describe me for today doesnt matter, receiving negative reactivity is just bad.

It seems to me that sense of pride (of merely a insignificant contribution) and happiness, together with some dashes of illusion of "popularity", got ahead of me and I started to react beyond the limit... and get the blunted side of an edge...

I think I still lack a self-indentity, such that people around me do not understand me, even to the point where there are times I do not even understand myself... and what cannot be understood cannot be accepted...

Mum, I was hurted, but this setback is good, and I thanked for its arrival. For it set the constraints I should be aware of, and prepare for the greater future.