RedAsh's Blog

Suddenly feel like a reject. Somehow, my past glory and popularity drop and rise dramatically for different individuals.I do have to admit that I do did some silly things that taint my image... like smiling silly in front of Jack aftering announcing to him that my contract ended... or showing my ugly front teeth in a wide smile up close... taking off my socks in front of others (Qi Jia seems to depise such "lowly" act)... All in all, I fail to keep my body language and reaction in check, resulting in lots of backfire reaction...

However, I do notice that Xiang Ming, a 1987, seems to be pretty frictious. He likes to cover up his mistakes, never admit his carelessness (like the pre-Black Friday, 12th July, Thursday), taking back his words (like in the "candy distribution" where he mentioned he wanted to place the candies in his folder, then he said I am silly to suggest as such, or the MRT where he is the one who challenge me that it is possible to travel from Changi to Boon Lay, while I mentioned it only last 3 stations, then after thinking a while, he said "Yea, I think it is 3 stations only, I dont know who say 1-way de, I think is you right? Marcus.") I think the CIRIS team, who got wind of me "pushing" the verification of CIRIS check to SCS team, is also an undoing of him...

This means ONE thing. Never ever reveal too much to a guy whose personalities are questionable. A person like Xiang Ming is a good example and he had helped me learnt my lesson. For my impatience and desire to "spread" my "new" improved plan... Still, there is this nice guy, Sunny, whom I must say is humble and at the very least, is trustable.

At the end of the day, and this very short 1 month CIRIS had taught me a lot about myself and the community of IT in Singapore.

1> There are lots of Jealousy (I do know I had gain alot from my peers and somehow my superiors) around and these breeds into political issues.

2> I do had lots of charm in me and many MANY females are attracted to me by my looks alone, even on MRT - this motivated me alot, and I want to have a backing and status that match my looks - a financially and socially equilevant to the attraction of my outlook (I do not want to be just a nice "wrapping").

3> I do react like a clown and this is a HUGE issue, for it can easily lose respect.

4> I need to learn to turn on my charm at the appropriate times and yet to NOT to react like a monkey (overdoing it). Afterall, I am not an entertainer. This is something I MUST learn from Alvin, NCO of ICA, and Daryl and Jack, my Bosses.

5> Something I know in the past is that "work is important, but standard procedure must be adhere to" (that is, the latter has a higher priority). This is something I saw it implemented by Terrance - to comply with the current instructions, and to NOT to do more if no less than instructed. Brillant way to work, and I must thanked him for his smart way of working. (This made me realised the Singaporean "Code of Obedience" in work, which matters more than anything else)

6> Positive attitude helps alot. I get to know lots of people in ICA, SCS and many more. It helps with getting cooperation work done easier and faster - and more importantly, more friends and less enemies.

Thanks for the excellant experience I learnt from this quick 1 month contract, Mother. It has set me up positively for my future endeavour. I do and can socialise afterall =D Hopefully, I can clinch the contract for MINDEF and experience more of such.