RedAsh's Blog

I had a dream, a truely unique dream, as if I had entered her subconsicious. Or as if as though Mum had enlightened me like last time... last time where she visited me for the first time and also the last time, where she appeared normal initially, appeared healthy. Then she rapidly and gradually frails into the form that Her illness had taken the toll on my dear mother. I simply hug around her devastated body and said to her "Welcome back" from the deepest and warmest from the bottom of my heart... now its the same once again; I dream about Karen...

The dream took place where she was somehow crying and I carried her up a staircase (unfamiliar to me) she was crying and wepting, and she asked me "Am I a burden?" I hugged her tighter and said "What a silly thing to ask." Then I continue to climb while our hearts met soul to soul. Then I suddenly asked her "What had fucked you before? Can you tell me?" She hestitiated, before saying "Daniel fucked me twice... and also "name", "name"... (I cannot recall all, but it seems "Christopher" is not in the list). I kept silence, and continue climbing the stairs... then I reached some sort of flat platform where I let her down, and she happily hop away like a little girl and I closely follow behind...

Mum, thanks for the dream, I know you are somewhere besowing this dream to me. Thanks, from the deepest of my heart... for this has helped me a lot and MOST importantly, Karen...
Oh and its 5am as of this writing, and I am glad I did.