RedAsh's Blog

Today is a special day for me...

First day of my new job but that is not special enough, its is with my previous job company's partner. Still its nothing fabulous, its a small world afterall...

Whats special is that I met her, Wendy (or Winni as the way I call her to myself). For some reasons, she has that special "attraction". (Oh, and I wonder if it is fate, she took the initiate to wake me from my little nap in the main hall... and boy am I in joy to meet her... I was thinking about her from the first step I stepped into the SCS building...)

Unlike my first crush during my primary school days, it is more of a "nice-to-have" feeling, nor my 2nd crush in my secondary school days that she will be a great "pal" to have along side.

Winni is something much more intense, more bigger... as if I have never see the sky before... and I cant even see whether the sky is blue or green... I can only see her... I have many fantastic dreams with her... of future and of happiness... and of greatness...

But I fear... I... I have no faith in love... I fear... and I know the VERY origin of my fear... I have no faith in myself...

I may be thinking too much... Happen to bought "Merlin Rouge" today... I must say it just simply blows me away... its just awesome... totally Shakespear... totally shaken my heart, my soul and my faith for the greatness of love... the story is magnificient and everything in the show, every single second is simply alluring...

For once, I dream... as myself a penniless guy with my love ... and together, we learn the greatest thing ever learn as human, to love and to be loved in return...

Mum, I know somehow somehow we are "attracted" to each other... but I do not know if this will be short-lived... only time (and fate) will tell...

I must say its a rather short fate, since I was deployed to some off-site area, away from SCS HQ, away from Winni... a twist of fate huh? Ha...