RedAsh's Blog

Woke up at 0730 and went down to Orchard at RELC building. Although I reached there at 0915, I finished my payment at 1030. Cos I made a mistake and took the queue number for Cash, rather than NETS. ARGH.

It was then I heard that Channel U is looking for a "fresh face of 2008" and they are offering a price of 25000. I thought it will be "Ming Xin Lian" of some taiwan shows I watched years back. This tempted me to try out, 25k richer in mere minutes, it will be a fool to pass that out.

I reached at the area call "Orchard Cineleisure". Took a form fill it up and join the queue. It was quite a crowd and I am amaze to see so many "star" quality personnel; I am in some lousy jeans and looked tired with dark rings thanks to only 2 hrs of sleep yesterday.

I was interviewed at the queue, and I flatly rejected as I was told I try to keep it low profile. Surprised, the interviewer replied, "how am I going to keep a low profile when I will be going onstage to perform" "WHAT!" is my answer. And I stand there astonished. Anyway, they simply proceed with their interview and I answer shortly. Then they asked me to pose at one of the banner and took some pictures. I was enveloped in fear. It seems things are just no good.

I tried to leave but was stopped and pursuaded to stay and try for I may just win the 25k. What the hell, I can feel my heart bursting. Then some camerawoman come over to ask for the queuing contestant to pose for the program. I rejected again using "too afriad" as an excuse. I just dun want my face to appear on the TV.

Anyway the whole show goes on and I was forwarded to one of the seats, awaiting to be interviewed ON STAGE. It was lunch break, and I think its a good time to go HOME.

During the break, I happen to be with 2 of the judges in the toilet and overheard that they commented on how disappointed they are with the contestants and some other rudy comments.
I went out and buy a drink at Burger King and sat there thinking. "What the Hell, I need that 25k!" Then a quote sounded "Cos you do not have the guts to go out there to claim your stake!" from the movie Wallstreet. My mind is in a twirt and I seem to hardly think straight.

Before me, I saw 3 breath-taking potentials. All males, one of them is a 19 handsome chap who do music, another is a china 28 who is simply a hunk doing his master at Singapore. The last one is an awesome handsome chap who had performed many times elsewhere in some other shows and he also had enticed the help of a SG beauty contestant ranked 4th. He had a awesome body too. Perfect... too perfect... even I am in awe.

He is one role model I show follow, exercise whenever free and can. He plays his xesaphone beautifully too.

Anyway, I know I stand no chances at all. I only think "the best I can do now... is to go home or give it a shot?" Anyway before I reach an answer to that, it was my turn already.

I was asked to go on stage. I simply walk (trying not to tremble much) to the front give a weak smile and nob to one of the judge (the main one I think) and retreat to the microphone.

I was amazed by my own voice as I speak out. "Wow, so this is my voice, kinda good" This somehow give me some confidence ~ there seems to have lots more for me to explore with my body, I seem to not to realise what treasure Mum had bestow upon me.

Anyway, I proceed to intro whatever my brain can come up with, name, age, job, studies and freetime hobbies. Then somehow, from nowhere I suddenly burped out that one of the contestant question that is unanswered. I mentioned that channel U is focusing on asean markets and china ultimately, so maybe my china voice and be sell as a "singapore chinaman". Anyway, I was thinking to myself, "What the heck am I talking about, it is TOTALLY nonsence that I cant even bear to hear myself."

Anyway, the judge said am I done? I dun know why I replied "Erm below is my philosophy" then I started to mumble the lyrics of "Zi Ri". (The judge corrected "its Zi Yue" - no wonder I cant find anything when I keep trying Zi Ri at Google.com). The judge asked me to try again in future after I am prepared. OUT! ~ I was trying to retreat nicely by being offensive to reject the application first... haiz, cant do things right when mind is in a twirl.

Phew, Thank God its over. Or not? Sunny smsed me that it will be boardcast. HAHA, great... I proceed to sms all other better friends about my appearance on TV soon. Anyway, I wrote them an email. Hope they will respect my wish.

Mum bless me and hope I will not appear on TV for the selection. I just want to continue with my quiet private life and be a star to those around me and I am satisfied in that way already.