RedAsh's Blog

Its Sunday Mum... its been someweeks since I had a really REAL Sunday to rest myself...

Yea just got involved in a NCS Content Management System Project... CMS was from IBM, NCS merely purchase it and implements it but buggy still, esp with the "What you see is what you (NOT) get Editor ~ wysiwygEditor)

Anyway, more importantly... analysing the market (more like worrying abt the market haha) and the ULTIMATE: catching up with my CIS 318 and 320... and hunting down that "trash" in the house whoever that took $$$ from my wallet...

Still Mum, the most important recent "breakthrough" in my life happens all in one night... Its was on a Friday night ard 5am...

It drawn upon me that everyone around me all doesnt matter... for in this world, they had and will never love me (and us) like you do, loving unconditionally and with all of your heart... you make it to the point that we are your priority... Others admire, jealous, look up upon, "want" me and all others but they will never "love" me... they dun even understand the meaning of the purest love...

Irregardless, Mum, the recent event of helping Xiaoyi with Ahma's asset issue must had heighten my awareness somewhat and only then I manage to incur this "truth"...

Still, I also realised that in this world "SURVIVAL" is the key to ALL possibiities... to ALL wonders one coud ever dream of... AND the very sole and simplest form TO this survival is to consume "food" to sustain our "body system"... once that is achieve that "GROWTH" will actually happens...

HENCE mum, this means that ONE need to grow stronger and stronger so that he wont be fall prey to other being (and endup being a "food")... hence EVERYTHING around me are merely tools and food... nothing more... for they habour no "love" for me and henceforth, I need no remorse nor mercy...

This is something new for me... and I shall work towards on mending this new discovery into my life and see what change it will brings...

I need your blessing Mum, and please do bless Xiaoyi as well, for she is facing a huge mental stress caused by the "greed" of others; all of whom you loved and cared for before...