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Mum,

This Monday is a good day, the market is going down and I am in a favourable position, although others are in MORE favourable situations...

Still the real purpose for the existance of 15th Sep 2008, is a sudden spur. My intention to discuss with DanJian regarding Karen... or more like "his plan" for Karen...

It was 11pm when Ken suddenly return home after some nearly 3 weeks of nights outside... with his girlfriend I assume.

I then request a short timeout with him with focus on Karen...

As he retreat to his room after his shower, I SMS him that the meeting is ready to start; I intend to held the discussion in his room, while his gf surf the net on my computer. But as things go, his gf is preparing to sleep, and thus we held the meeting in the kitchen behind the "closed" glass sliding door.

I had only 3 intentions in my mind. With all the evidence by my hand of Karen's misdoing, I only had to report to the police about her misdoings and then report to them the neligence of Ken and Er'Yi; Yes I understand this is something you may not wish to see but this is a necessary thing for a slight ray of light... if you wish for nothing less than normal daughter you had in your mind, and the judgement of the incompetence ~ and yes that includes me, for I had failed terribly in this aspect and had to seek...

But I had to answer to another of the promise to you, to maintain the relationship between Ken and I... even though I know there is a limit I can stretch (initially, my attempts to give treats like pizza hut, MacDonands are childish and foolish). And also I had to be convinced that Ken is more mature now, and therefore less likely to evade responsibilities like what he use to do in the past...

Anyway the whole event starts off by showing the "evidence" I had of Karen's stealing my wallet.
I purposely show the video where vision of the criminal is blur... so as to judge Ken's reaction... as expected, he initially acted blur... then I show him the video of a clear view of the criminal...

CONCLUSION: Ken is not really mature yet, and is definately trying to evade issues at hand like he did in the past... hard to change one's spots...

So this means moving to the next phase, explaining the course of things I had done during the 2 years to relate to facilitate Ken's understanding (althought I wonder if he ever bother to spent a second to really think about the whole issue...);

First I started off to tell Ken that all my physical disciplinary actions taken against Karen are all recorded by the doctor as I will seek medical attention if I am too harsh - and is readily to receive whatever consequences for what I had done... for what I had done is indeed inappropriate ~ still irregardless I had to for I am prepare to sacrifice myself...

Then the juvenile court, and the possibility of facing a $5000 fine and 2 weeks jail. All these are necessary as Ken said that it is still quite "acceptable" (after watching the video) which I would had went berserk a year back with low glucose intake...

Anyway, I did reveal a part of my plan that I am taking some action soon, and the action I am going to take will maybe affect him and Er-yi.

I then proceed with my second objective... "what kind of environment can you give her?" follow by the question which I asked him before a year back then:
"What did you stop me from sending her to Girl's Home? And insisted on taking care of her for her entire life?"

So far no direct answer as he proceed to give me all the encounters he had with his THINKING that "she will change for the better". I argued on that then the funniest thing that happened was that he actually asked me the question that "What makes you think she wont?"... My answer? "What makes you think she will?" ~ For it is a question he does not even has answer for himself...

"...things happened, and when it does, no "if", "maybe" or "I think" will be entertained." I explained. "What I see is that you are only letting things happen then you step in, totally well aware of the probability of the problem. What I did is to prevent, for that is what Mum is concerned..."

Ken then went on to the punishment that I exercise on Karen in the past, like forcing her to play MapleStory etc I explain that it is all the punishment for Karen actually abuse my freedom I give her, totally disregard my "no bf" rules (after endless sessions on BGR materials) and still seek out a boyfriend through MapleStory. I did silly things because I am on my wit's end, from pocket money penalty, to military exercise discipline... when all fails even to the extreme of cutting her hair bald... so as to prevent and deter future BGR, with expense to myself being criminal in the eye of the law... for law cannot help her then...

Seeing there will be no progress, for I concluded that Ken never really give a serious thought on the environment he can provide for Karen, or at least the kind of environment where she will not be influenced by the other outside forces with her given characteristics of taking things for granted and total self-centerness...

So I move on... and asked for something more practical... more visible... what will be his course of action should Karen fail her final year exam this year 2008?
His answer is "I will review again her behaviour, results.. blah blah blah" <= that is what I heard btw..

In short, nothing, "just let it happens and let nature run its course" is what he is saying Mum... whatever I respect his decisions and assured him that I will hold back my actions and let him fulfilled "plan"... in fact he even mentioned to let Karen fail her "O"-levels, so that she can "realised"... sounds like fantastic plan to you Mum?

As time is precious, I move on to the most important objective, the thing that you are worried about, her chasity... I ask for Ken to seek medical prove from KK. He give all sorts of excuse, and ultimately he mentioned that he will not do it and ask me to do it... I told him "so you want me to wipe your arse after merely 1 year of the whole "I will look after her for life" bullshit?"

Then I come to a compromise, only if she failed this year exam and how is he going to do execute the "inspection" is entirely up to him... I did suggest to him to do it by himself, for it is a dirty lining and the least pple known the better...

Anyway, Mum, time to draw a line for Karen... if nothing is done now, nothing can be later... and yes, after Ken's incident with dad's issue, I can only say I am prepare to break another promise with you Mum, but do understand that it is part of the necesscity of betterment...

Once again, sorry mum... and hope you will forgive this weakling son of yours... for unable to fulfill what you had told again and again... but only for now, once I had gain enough strength, I will change everything... that is my only aim now...

PS:
Btw Mum, today as of 2nd Oct 2008, Ken is too busy with his new girlfriend that he assumes all will be ok for Karen... oh yes, she is definately ok with all the unattention to resume her telephone and TV time... Brillant plan and truely responsible huh?