RedAsh's Blog

Hello Mum,

Today I went down to SIM for my supervision session regarding my CIS320.
This is the first most fruitful session I ever had. The whole objective is clear. I only nid to focus on the Java aspect. I am fortunate to learn about Binary Invoke that allows Java to call other software... Hence I only need to learn to USE, not to understand (in details).

Anyway, after we say goodbye, we meet again at the busstop, then board the same bus. It is kinda awkward so I wave him goodbye after some more extra "consultation" and walk towards the Taxi Stand. I also received ZhongKai's SMS that Eryi want me to go to his house for dinner.

Anyway, when I reached there, the meeting is already over. Meiling had said her piece and everyone will be folking out 100SGD for Grandma's Maid Expense.

Rather, the focus was shift to Grandma's knee problem and ultimately, Eryi's latest decision to become a full-ledge housewife.

It funny that she pull me into the room to tell me her decisions and the course of action she will be doing. She intended to give extra to Dajiu for marketing under Eryuzhan's nose. With I advice her not to, as it will only lead to issues when uncovered. She also mentioned part of her intention to quit is also to look after grandma and she also express her intention to bring Grandma over to her house. Again, I advice her not to as 1> Grandma is happy now 2> everyone will blame Eryi should things went hairy. She took it in.

Then it move on to her decision. From the conversation, she sound very determined and had given a clear thought on her discontination of her current job. Then after learning from EryiZhan, she had seem to set her expectation too high and she still held esteem from her work... so I propose to her to try it out for a month first... then 3 more months... with her maid still around... her maid contract ending on March 2009.

For the first month, I stress that she should not be bothering whatever external forces and noises, and focus her energy on herself... as I told her that the current situation is she and her husband is on the same "level" of esteem... but this esteem, being generated from the workspace, will erode with time... I want her to think clearly internally what she can really accept... and what she cant... for my intention is that she can only be a housewife when she is able to generate her esteem from her family; which is tough, as she already set her expectation so high, and as human beings are, her expectations will only continue to raise with time... to a point where it cannot be easily satisfied or met... then things will start to collapse...

Anyway, I did told EryiZhan that it is a GOOD problem, not a bad problem... watever, hope all goes well for her, Eryi has to understand the whole event only starts when the maid left... as the maid will serve to maintain some esteem on her... anyway, hope it ultimately benefits her daughter WanLing...

Btw Mum, I asked Eryi if she is ok if she has to see Eryizhan's "Face Colour"... she did honestly reply a "NO"... oh well, as she had mentioned, it is all human will... I wish her well, and Mum, wish me luck, I really want so strongly so ever to succeed... to live more... to live better...

Give me strength Mum, for I need it now more than ever!