RedAsh's Blog

Morning Mum, this morning is refreshing for me...

I woke up collected and calm. After some thought, I realised that I have been rushing through important things, such as exercising and studying, I am focus on getting them done, rather than learning and benefitting from them.

It seems to me that I am aiming to get more free time to play online games. It looks like I need to reverse my mental application.

Taking long deep breaths, I realise that I should be calm, cool, collected; and with that I was capable of focusing my mind better... and my brain felt cooler... felt like it is filled with oxygen.

Another thing I notice is that when I daydream, my eyes looked down, and my brain got "waxed" in the center of my forehead, resulting in irritation and wanting to rush thing through... something that I experienced back when I deprive myself of sugar... weird...

One more thing, a crow (I assume since it is a big black bird and I wasnt really waken) flies through my bedroom window, and I discovered that its wings actually commands ALOT of strength, in that it creates a very, VERY strong gust of wind, for I experienced a gust similar to a cooling breeze to my face.

If such force is to be applied to a human, it can definitely cracked bones. However, birds, as I know, has hollowed bones, as such should they applied such force to another object, they will do harm to themselves instead...

This taught me something, as much as there may be potential, in this law of nature, it only serves a unique purpose. Abuse it, misapplied it will only do you harm. Never try to be "funny" and do some heroic act ~ if I am the crow that is... haha

It reminds me mum,
"WINNERS DONT DO DIFFERENT THINGS, THEY DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY."

Mum, I will try to collect myself from now on. Slow but steady, clam and collected, in my endeavour for REAL Really Important things that matter. And try to rush through VIRTUAL matter instead... for all the time I spent on gaming, should be re-invested into MATTERS THAT REALLY MATTER.

Bless me mum, so far I can only experience it all in the morning, lossing my concentration and patience in the noon, and all of it by evening... Looks like I am getting on age... 3 years more to 30... haha, time is really running out for me...

ADDED:

Mum, today I went out to KTV session with Kai and 2 of his friends, BingYu and Robert. Former is his poly the latter secondary friends.

The only reward for today is the discovery of "ting mama de hua" by Jay Chou...
An ear opening experience...

"
Ting ma ma de hua
~ Listen to mother’s words,

bie rang ta shou shang
~ don’t let her get hurt.

xiang kuai kuai zhang
~ You want to grow up quickly

da cai neng bao hu ta
~ so you can take care of her

Mei li de bai fa
~ Beautiful white hair,

xing fu zhong fa ya
~ growing inside happiness.

tian shi de mo fa
~ Angelic magic

wen nuan zhong ci xiang
~ benevolence within (her) gentleness
"

I wonder what will be now if you are still around mum... my life is falling apart faster than I thought, I have no aim other than aimlessly massing money...

Mum, thank you for today's experience... unforgettable sweet reminder, to push myself to work hard...