RedAsh's Blog

Mum, today I had a good talk with Eryi.

She had helped to pin-point my weakness.

She mentioned that I protraited an image of matureness but my weakness is revealed when I talked, my eye and tone shows an image of idiotness.

Her advice for me is to be more shrewd.

Since I had set a bad impression on my superior, in particular, course administrator, Inche Roslan, the only way I can do is to redeem myself.

1> And this is only be done with my consistency, sincerity in my training. All these requires discipline, and being on alert at all times.

2> And she also advice me not to trouble him anymore.

I felt relieved when Eryi said that she is confident in me, and I am to be confident in myself, and in my capabilities.

At the same time, she reminded me that I will trouble others, not just me, should I get OOC (out of course), and she is refering to the bond. Also she reminded me that I should never ALWAYS use my anti-social as an excuse; I should overcome it.

She also said it is only 6 months, and she understood that all my attitude will be reported.

Mum, I can only do my best not to OOC now. Please bless me, please protect me from heat injury. I am in one of the most critical crisis in my life. I am afraid that the Course Administrator will notify the HQ to OOC me in the middle of my course. Please grant me more luck. I need more, MUCH more of it than ever.